A decade of blogging
The BBC had me thinking this morning about the end of the first decade of the new millennium.
This wee little website has become a fixture in my life, though my relationship with it has changed over the years. My motivation for starting it, oh so many years ago, was simply a place to air the contents of my brain and also a place to collect the plethora of amusing and interesting URLs that I kept digging up. It was also a convenient way to keep me occupied, as I was unemployed at the time.
When Forever North (my ex) and I broke up, the act of cataloguing the minute details of my life started to feel more awkward than it had before. Part of it was to maintain my zealous desire for privacy, but part of it was also to avoid treading on sensitive areas. Forever North and I spent 7 years together, and our shared memories seemed to permeate every part of my life. It was all I could do to keep my chin up and continue moving forward, without questioning or revisiting the past.
Things were further complicated when Seuss and I started dating. We met through our websites, and our websites became the talk of our friends and family. Consequently, I became self-conscious of saying anything that was either deeply personal, or in any way involving our relationship, particularly if it would embarrass my quiet and deeply private new boyfriend. I gamely continued documenting the entertaining aspects of our lives, particularly the many concerts we were photographing and attending, but the personal elements all but disappeared.
I think it has taken me the last 4 years to get to a point where I’m comfortable enough to share more personal thoughts and feelings again. Seuss and I are now content and secure enough as a couple that I’m not afraid that I will inadvertantly scare him into hiding, and I think it has reopened my relationship with Limeworld.
I’ve tried making it a music blog, or a place where I simply catalogue amusing things, but that isn’t me. Limeworld is a journal of sorts, one missing pages here and there, but ultimately adding up to a reasonable approximation of who I have been and who I am becoming. I’m eager to share a little more of my life again, if only to give my future self a window into the person I am.
There are some topic areas that I will generally avoid on Limeworld, but this has everything to do with the fact that I am aware that my audience includes family members who would really prefer to not read about things of an adult nature. For their sake, I save that content for elsewhere. If you are interested in knowing what I talk about over there, send me an email.